Archive of Thought

Diary

2010-07-14T22:59:00.005+01:00

Here is my entry for this weeks Illustration Friday. What I actually intended to do was to draw a book with all sorts of strange security devices but in the end I couldn't really come up with any that would fit and/or be obvious enough. Instead I give you this:

Why it has been unlocked is for you to figure out. Have someone been reading it without permission perhaps?

Man & Dog

2010-06-11T23:01:00.008+01:00

Here is a drawing I made from a photo taken by my girlfriend at the
Medieval Week on Gotland last summer. I started drawing it in black and white by the end of August and hadn't really touched it again for nearly a year until yesterday, when I decided to finish it.

Since I always keep several versions of my drawings I decided to combine them into a video clip. Here is how this drawing came to be:

Some day I will try to remember to create an actual time lapse recording of the process.

Stina

2010-05-31T16:25:00.004+01:00

"Just once in my life I'd like to get a drink without hearing the same tired old jokes"

2010-01-03T20:53:00.006+01:00

It has been well over a year since I last posted anything here, so I thought it might be time. Since I didn't know what to draw I went over to Monday Artday to see if I might find some inspiration there and it turned out that last weeks challenge was horse and the challenge ends tomorrow. So I sat down and did a quick ink sketch of the first thing that came to my mind...

Birthday Gift: 30 Days of Night

2008-08-29T17:44:00.003+02:00

This is a personalized birthday gift for a vampire movie lover. Her favorite vampires are the ones from the movie 30 Days of Night. So I decided to create a new movie poster with her as a vampire.

The text wasn't made by me, that is why it is in a lower resolution. Must fix it before I send it away for printing.

Beautiful

2008-08-25T11:57:00.002+02:00

Fragments

2008-04-09T23:11:00.002+02:00

Heartache

2008-04-08T23:36:00.001+02:00

Multiple

2008-02-29T12:59:00.001+01:00

Alien

2008-02-20T01:31:00.002+01:00

Creature

2008-02-05T13:27:00.000+01:00

I've been browsing the images of http://www.creaturesinmyhead.com/ the last few days and it seems impossible not to become inspired by them. So, I had to draw this nameless little fella tonight.

Transition

2008-01-20T21:31:00.000+01:00

This weeks theme on Monday Artday is transition. This made me think of a frog and its transition from egg to tadpole

to metamorph

to fullgrown frog

Originally I was only planning on drawing the metamorph phase but it ended upp as the fullgrown frog above. Then i decided to do the fullgrown frog and the tadpole but the tadpole turned into the metamorph image. Of course, then I had to do the tadpole as well. Which means I actually drew these three images in backwards order.

Maybe I need to draw the egg as well to make the series complete.

IF: Stitch

2008-01-15T23:20:00.000+01:00

The word stitch immediately made think of something like a ragdoll, a simple doll made from pieces of cloth and held together by coarse stitches. Somewhere along the way though, while I was drawing it, it transformed into a voodoo doll.

Portrait

2008-01-10T23:53:00.000+01:00

Chief Sitting Bull

2008-01-07T23:03:00.000+01:00

Hiding From the Rays of the Sun

2008-01-06T02:45:00.000+01:00

Coffee

2007-11-13T16:22:00.000+01:00

Made for the "Illustrate your favorite Monday Artday Artist!" challenge on Monday Artday. You can find the artist I illustrated, Zari, and her friends (like Zappy, the one on the coffee cup) here.

Sacrifice

2007-11-11T16:20:00.000+01:00

Again my drawing tablet is failing me and have to use my touchpad. Even though I love my tablet and feel clumsy without it, it is kind of a fun challenge trying to draw and express something using a simpler tool.

Ninja

2007-11-06T16:13:00.000+01:00

It's been a while since my last post. Just to prove that I am still around, here is a quick concept I sketched today for the main character of a 2D platform game.
Just to be able to see what the end result might look like, I sat down for about an hour and recreated a vector version of it on my laptop.

Monsters

2007-09-03T22:31:00.001+02:00

Feeling More Than A Little Lost

2007-09-01T19:39:00.000+02:00

Camouflage II

2007-08-18T21:14:00.000+02:00

When there is something missing from your life you put on a mask to cover up the hideous faces of the four foul beasts sadness, depression, loneliness and envy. It is a façade that requires an incredible amount of energy to maintain, and sooner or later it will start to break down and mercilessly reveal what was not meant to be seen by anyone.

It's been a strange and emotional week. Next week will be better. It has to.

Going Medieval

2007-08-14T22:18:00.000+02:00

Back again, after a week in Visby and the Medieval Week. I've been walking barefoot, dressed in home made medieval clothing and it's been a great week overall. To make sure that I always had something to do I decided to bring a sketchbook and a box of pencils (but stupidly enough, no eraser). So, here is a rare treat for all of you; A drawing made by me of something that actually exists outside of my own mind.

It shows the gate of St. George (Sankt Göransporten) and a section of Visby's ring wall.

Moon

2007-08-03T12:39:00.000+02:00

Not a favorite of mine, but at least it is a moon. A quick one from work again.

Secret

2007-07-25T23:06:00.001+02:00

I Turn On The Lights But The Room Stays Dark

2007-07-23T23:25:00.001+02:00

This is a poem. But since I can not write it is a poem without words. I live alone for the first time in a very long while, and it feels like there is something missing now. As I returned from work today I stood in the doorway hesitated for a while, but with nowhere else to go I eventually had to go in. I hesitated because I realized that no one would greet me when I entered, no one would give me a hug and no one would be there to even say a single word.

Discovery: Owl

2007-07-14T01:48:00.001+02:00

On the topic of discovery, here is something I found lying around at work. I remember starting with the V-shape in frustration when things weren't going my way, The tip of the V became a birds beak and the rest of the bird started to take shape. By the time I got to the feet and the branch things were working again and i took the time to actually sketch them the way I wanted them.

This is the first image I have posted here that is actually drawn using pen and paper and then scanned. I didn't have my drawing tablet with my new laptop and no mouse so the coloring was done using the touchpad.

So... I guess i have discovered a new species, the Frustration Owl.

Geek

2007-07-08T18:39:00.000+02:00

A quick one on the geeky theme, or at least I think it was quick, you tend to loose track of time whenever you are in "the zone". I think a geek is someone who has more important things on his or her mind than worrying about shaving or getting a haircut or all those other superficial things in our lives. Just imagine the freedom! Long live the geek!

The Twist

2007-07-02T00:07:00.000+02:00

One of the last frames of an imaginary Comic Book, in which the main character has, on his own wedding day, unexpectedly been killed by the elusive, psychopathic, thought-to-be-dead villain he has been chasing through all the previous pages of the story. The final frame would be a low angle shot of the female killer walking down the isle towards the door in a blood soaked wedding dress...

I realized when I was walking home tonight to my empty apartment that my creativity takes different forms depending on my mood. When I am happy I use my camera to take pictures of the real world and when I feel sad or lonely I instead draw things from the strange world inside my head. I'm not sure whether this post is about the twist in the story or about my twisted mind.

Torso

2007-06-29T23:21:00.000+02:00

I had nothing to do tonight and for some reason I got the image of a woman's belly in my head. Photoshop was already running since I was trying to get inspiration for this weeks Illustration Friday topic so I just switched focus and went to work. I have never in my life tried to draw a woman's breasts but I think it went quite well. I think I almost managed to remember what those things look like...

Death Mask

2007-06-28T23:50:00.000+02:00

I liked this death mask inspired detail from my last post and had to separate it. As always I painted it from memory using photoshop.

Camouflage

2007-06-28T20:45:00.000+02:00

I have many identities. I use one at work, one at home, one with my friends and one when I visit my parents and siblings and I probably have quite a few more. But how do I know which one is the real me? Is it just one? Maybe it is all of them at once or am I just as faceless without them as the characters I draw? I don't know... it sometimes feels like I am pretending to be someone else even when there is no one else around.

Plain Dumb Hope

2007-06-28T19:28:00.001+02:00

I am desperately trying to hold up the collapsing tower I built and rested my entire being on. Slowly, stone by stone, it falls to the ground and all I can do is to try to slow down the process by holding it steadier with my arms. The best thing to do would probably be to just let go and let it fall and then rebuild it from the pieces but the fear rules me.

What if I have forgotten how? What if I can not make it stronger? How will I ever dare to use it for support in the future?

Of course I know that I must someday do it, there is no other option.

Rain

2007-06-27T01:41:00.001+02:00

Memories

2007-06-24T15:26:00.000+02:00

I drew this picture about 7 years ago. I actually woke up in the middle of the night and had to reach for a sheet of paper and a pencil and draw it. I've had it on a school web page for years (from some sort of introduction course about the internet where everyone had to create a page with at least one image). Yesterday I suddenly remembered about it and had to download it again. I don't like how I have colored it but who cares, it is a memory.

The Lovers

2007-06-13T22:07:00.001+02:00

I miss doing nothing at all and having someone to do nothing with. Sitting on a bench all day or lying in the grass, talking about everything or not saying anything at all. Someone to hug, to spoil and to long for when we are not together. But not just anyone will do, it has to be someone special.

Loneliness

2007-06-11T20:10:00.001+02:00

Limited amount of time but I still wanted to draw it so here is a quick sketch for today. The proportions are way out there but it'll have to do.

The Death of Hope

2007-06-09T02:32:00.001+02:00

I realized today that I live my life the way others have told me to, that I have allowed others to dictate what I should and should not do. The education I chose was the education that most people around me wanted me to get, not the one I first felt I wanted. Although I can not say it has been a bad choice I still get the feeling that maybe this is not what I want, and what I realized today was that at least it was not what I wanted when I was younger.

Going Somewhere?

2007-06-04T23:52:00.000+02:00

Bound

2007-06-01T23:46:00.001+02:00

To tired to draw anything so here is a picture from about two days ago. A bondage/fetish themed experiment that my hand and brain again conspired to create without my control. Of the four versions of the image I like the two versions on the left the most I think.

Land of Lost Toys

2007-06-01T00:36:00.001+02:00

For some reason I promised Entrinnen that I would draw a bunny for my blog so here it is. I have more plans for this image but they will have to wait just a little while longer. Meanwhile, please give my bunny a hug, I think he needs it!

I Was Going To Say Something Clever But...

2007-05-30T22:42:00.000+02:00

No inspiration today, no clear picture of what I want in my head. I have no idea how many pictures I've created and deleted tonight but there were quite a few of them. I'll just upload an oldie. A picture of the badly designed nail clipper I own that won't even cut the thinnest of finger nails.

The Shortest Long Day Ever

2007-05-29T23:46:00.001+02:00

Overtime at work today and I almost haven't done anything fun at all since I got home. Left for work at 8:20 this morning and returned home at 22:00. I at least made some changes to my "broken heart" image before bedtime. Now I'm going to lie down and solve some Sudoku on my Nintendo DS before lights out. Got to get some sleep before going back to work.

How To Mend A Broken Heart

2007-05-28T19:55:00.000+02:00

Sometimes I have a clear image of what I want to draw and other times I have no idea where my brain is going to take me. It felt like my hand was working on its own on this one, kind of like some sort of partial out-of-body-experience. I am not sure what I, or rather my right hand and my brain is trying to say with this image, but we can all guess it is about some sort of heart ache. A representation of all the things we long for but cannot have.

The Angel

2007-05-27T15:03:00.000+02:00

The Bitter End

2007-05-27T03:49:00.000+02:00

My favourite tool is failing me. It is malfunctioning and I don't know what to do. Maybe I can find myself some low-budget replacement until I can buy myself a proper one.

I'm Tired And Shold Not Be Writing Here

2007-05-26T01:58:00.000+02:00

My brain is cursed. It only understands math and logic.

I wish I could play an instrument. I wish I could draw. I wish I could make movies. I wish, I wish I wish... I really wish I could create something beautiful, something that matters, something that makes people feel something.

I can do many things, but none of them extraordinary, none of them are enough. I wish I could create something great. Like a great painting or a great song or a fantastic book. But my brain is cursed.

There Is Something Dark Hanging Over Our Heads Today

2007-05-24T19:13:00.003+02:00

This has been a strange day. Excitement has been replaced by disappointment, certainty turned into doubt and determination into regret. I've ruined it. Not once, but twice. When will I learn not to rely on hope, or rather, when will I learn not to be so slow to act? Life is a smörgåsbord, grab a plate and eat!

The Cold Hard Stone That Used To Be A Warm Beating Heart

2007-05-23T19:06:00.001+02:00

I was having a online conversation over msn and after a while I got a "brb". What to do? Well, I had an image in my head and since I now had a few minutes to spare I went to work.

Whenever something bad happens it seems like you automatically return to a poses resembling the fetal position. Almost as if curling ourselves around the pain will make it go away. The image is sort of a symbol of pain. Any pain, physical as well as psychological.

Originally though, the image was inspired by Entrinnen, a friend of mine who had a bad stomach ache the other day.

Hands Free?

2007-05-22T21:57:00.001+02:00

I drew this picture after I saw a girl with a "hands free" for her phone. The image of her stuck in my mind since she instead of having her hands free she used both of them to hold the microphone and the phone in front of her face like if she were a boxer. It is not even that uncommon, I see it all the time, different people every time. Today I even saw a guy on a bike, going downhill on a bridge doing it. Did I miss something?

An Outside View

2007-05-21T00:42:00.000+02:00

I guess we have all had that feeling one time or another. Felt left out, like we do not belong or that we are unwanted. Like on the first day in a new school, a new job or at a party where everyone seems to know everyone and they all have the time of their lives. Everyone but you.
But what about the times where we are one on "the inside", do we ever stop to think about the ones longing to be part of it? Maybe we should from time to time just stop, look around and say hello to the new guy/girl and ask how he/she is. Maybe it's even a future best friend (or more).

The Things That Make Us Human

2007-05-20T00:01:00.001+02:00

As "beauty is in the eye of the beholder", interpretation of this image depends on the viewer. If you have love in your life you identify with one of the lovers (or maybe they are just friends). If not, you probably identify with the invisible onlooker and maybe looking at it stings your heart, sort of like a love song on the radio the days after a breakup. I hope that you belong to the first category.

Interpretation depends again on what is going on in your life. When I sketched it I thought of a loving couple, but maybe you see a parent hugging her child or just the comforting embrace after a tragic event. Perhaps it is a hug goodbye or friends meeting for the first time after several years apart? Tell me, what do you see?

A Fresh Start

2007-05-19T14:02:00.000+02:00

When my hand-drawn pictures were not appreciated on the previous site I posted them on, I broke my pen in frustration. Or, rather, I got the image of a broken pen in my mind and had to draw it. This was the last picture I posted there and the first one post here.

I create the pictures for myself so I guess it is my own fault for previously showcasing them on a site where most people share pictures of their alcohol abuse, cats and shoes (converse mostly).